Here in Africa, where it is trendy for us women to wait and hope for a man that will come along and whisk us away with his arms of love and strength and money, it seemed like we started forgetting that we might have any potential of our own. It blocks our mind completely.
Against anything that makes us want to fight for ourselves, we tend to get off our ass less often.
Being a young woman can always be tricky especially for those who don’t have their parents fending for them in college. Is it that women really need men or we all need people period?
Whatever the case, most people will say; that’s how God made it or its just nature.
Relationships had always been hard for me to keep. I noticed keeping one left me, willing to bare it all. But when the one you always bare it to, is not available; then there is a feeling of disappointment. Then we start missing someone and most times they have no idea.
Many other people see me in these relationships and they wished they were in my position while I wished I was in theirs. I moved from one relationship to the other because that close friend disappointed me or I disappointed them, I decided that it was not worth the ache. I was tired of bothering or caring for someone other than myself. And I didn’t want anybody looking out for me. The idea was to surround myself with so much people and still be alone. There was not one of those people that were as important as for me to bare it to. So when the lights go out it was just me. And it was fun, when you don’t have to think about anybody’s consideration about a step you want to take.
I wanted to be the lady that built it on her own, without any attached help per-say. It made me focus, it made me give all of myself to it , knowing that I wouldn't have anybody tell me tomorrow that they got me here; it was enough motivation to go on. I made my mark, I was able to deal with my own issues and not miss any close friend because I had none. But somehow as nature will play out; since it will always have the upper hand, that right friend will always come along and when he/she does; then you are happy to care, it will be your pleasure to open up to them, you will be indulgent. Then I realized creating relationships does not make you dependent, it makes you believe in God.
Against anything that makes us want to fight for ourselves, we tend to get off our ass less often.
Being a young woman can always be tricky especially for those who don’t have their parents fending for them in college. Is it that women really need men or we all need people period?
Whatever the case, most people will say; that’s how God made it or its just nature.
Relationships had always been hard for me to keep. I noticed keeping one left me, willing to bare it all. But when the one you always bare it to, is not available; then there is a feeling of disappointment. Then we start missing someone and most times they have no idea.
Many other people see me in these relationships and they wished they were in my position while I wished I was in theirs. I moved from one relationship to the other because that close friend disappointed me or I disappointed them, I decided that it was not worth the ache. I was tired of bothering or caring for someone other than myself. And I didn’t want anybody looking out for me. The idea was to surround myself with so much people and still be alone. There was not one of those people that were as important as for me to bare it to. So when the lights go out it was just me. And it was fun, when you don’t have to think about anybody’s consideration about a step you want to take.
I wanted to be the lady that built it on her own, without any attached help per-say. It made me focus, it made me give all of myself to it , knowing that I wouldn't have anybody tell me tomorrow that they got me here; it was enough motivation to go on. I made my mark, I was able to deal with my own issues and not miss any close friend because I had none. But somehow as nature will play out; since it will always have the upper hand, that right friend will always come along and when he/she does; then you are happy to care, it will be your pleasure to open up to them, you will be indulgent. Then I realized creating relationships does not make you dependent, it makes you believe in God.
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Wow..i think am gonna go get myself a friend....a girlfriend.
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